we can make it easier but you choose the hardest way

I have to express it what is in my heart and what i ever felt in my life and i hope you will read this jackie lonna james,, i know you are getting matured in life, and you have you own choices in life. SPM will soon end and you will start your life as a teenager. I am also proud of you kie. I just hope you don't fail in your life kie. I know our  relationship in love is no longer available, but i just hope our friendship will not end too, i know you do have the intention to Ignoring me..yaa i really understand kie, but why do you have to hate me very much.? i just don't think you should hate me kie, don't say you can't forgive me cause nobody's perfect in making their life's perfect as God. But however, I admit that I also make a mistakes to you, but I just don't know where and what the mistakes that I've made, but the fact is I seems already made ​​a mistake that's why you hate me. i know it is hard for me to forget you, let you go..because i already give my all for you, but what can i say, it's already end by you, and now i want to apologize for making you cry everyday. i just hope someday there will be someone who are really honestly love you like i do. i know you ever think that i and Jane still contact. I will make this clear here, Me and Jane never contact, i don't know if you really believe me in this but it's ok, i already telling you the truth. And i Just hope someday we still can be friend, i don't mind how long it takes, because before this I had already been waiting for you for three years, so three more years it's normal for me. I just hope you don't easily fall in love with people you don't know kie, I'm sorry kie. hope you read this :'(((